howl

father sits in sister's spot, strange. then mother, strange!
where is sister where is sister for many nights
father howls then mother howls louder, oh! so scary up to the bright dark
then brothers too and me too i howl hurt, our howls so scary and not calling sister
we howl and howl and howl together, same, alone
then mom stops so i stop we stop, and no sound
i hear, i see, song is done, sister is done

aquatic missionary

born then brutalized

the serpent tries to eat itself

    we watch bored

like god, that drunken judge

    i dare him

to send satan to hell in my stead

my wishful sinking arises on

   the deepest ascent    alone

i breach the glassy veil     and launch lifted

into the inverted world   free

suspended and suffocating

means, ends

birds of a feather think alike

great minds flock together

i wear my heart close to my chest

you carry your cards on your sleeve

all's fair in love and spoils

to the victor goes the war

How a stamen sees a fish is how I sense my kind Billions of individuals with one mind asking Where Do I come from Where am I going There is nature Here is me And there is  Nature in the miles of wire The moon in the laptop The wind in the washing machine

Patience Independence From a singular many Trillions of parts With one mind answering How a stamen can see a fish Can I sense Billions and trillions Where do Am I Go I There is 

all

i want to

do is

fast asleep

can anyone stop the night

can many stop one

wherever i look is nowhere 

whoever i recall is twilit

enough

please no more

all i want to do is

fast asleep

where are you
i'm identifying
i remember feeling very glad
when he expressed that
he was glad
to have expressed
here i am
identifying the feeling
of being sad that time
when you didn't express
that you were
there with me
saddened by my sadness
gladdened by my gladness
feeling safe to express
even safe to withdraw
here with you
where am i

home for sale

---we go home, you dazzle of home, you advertise it. the father owns the mother---

owns me. but i own something that cannot be kept, by anyone. it has no quantity. i hear laughing downstairs, a joy that sounds like a threat.

---we laugh at you so your shell will harden and compound in value. your treasure is ours. we'll keep you kept. your body has agreed to the sale of an organ. the price is the price. the sales/death process commences.---

and you purchase nothing for the cost of nothing, a vast fortune of costume jewelry, a string of pearls of atoms with a half life of my lifetime that cannot be worn or sold. it already decays. i will not discard what discards itself.