a spell

i come upon the ghosts
i don't want to hold them
my grief is love with nowhere to go
i want to go, and i start to
then i cast a spell, or it casts itself

Vivianette, Lauren, Ursula, a sigil

vivianette leads my death to death

lauren tears its veil into fine threads

ursula sweeps it away in the still light of midday

unreturned, my joy, my love, is gone, is gone!


A leash a leash
First dinner abandonment
Freedom and violence Ashes ashes 
The ocean lashes atone atone 
Life is something something helping something still eyed faulty failure lost our little boy 
What will help said life is fragile
Wrap in baby blanket body warm failure failure 
A leash Alisha said nothing could have happened other than the way it happened 
Regret the multiverse where he lives and I hold him again and play in the sun 
Acorn carrot abandonment a rainy night
Bad parents who fail Innocence something something innocence put pain somewhere spiral into a pit and stay there in hell