9/08/2019

The imitations of life are gilded
and surrounded by an armamentarium
of mental ballasts,
advertorials of mind,
medicines and magazines,
and lord, so many photos.
They are icons, and they multiply.
Icons of icons of icons.

I'll stop defining myself.
In the Moorish style, my selfhood
won't be depicted, recursively, in myself,
yet I'll be hiding in plain sight
from you, from me,
in the interlaced patterns
on my temple's walls.

There's an endless story being told,
and the teller is the listener
is the protagonist.
He seems familiar, but I don't know him.
It is late, it is eternal.
I douse the fire, go to sleep,
and dream of nothing.

8/14/2019

always, mirror, bruise

Relieved, believe the lie
believe the bored will never
sigh, but rapt and dazzled
always
- remain at your side

Why challenge the ruse
why decipher the trick
take the smoke and
mirror
- as a gentler magic

Hold fast to the joy
that holds fast to you
its grip and spreading
bruise
- are traces of the truth

8/07/2019

monitoring


  • live webcam footage of man grooming himself in bathroom mirror while muttering blandishments he learned from a self-help book
  • subtitles [ (man speaking foreign language) ]
  • scroll to settings, system, advanced, update system from package, insert black market drive w/ jailbreak file
  • restart system
  • return to webcam 200544
  • man is gone, mirror empty
  • subtitles [ ]
  • man returns, spits out toothpaste, grins as if practicing being human, resumes muttering blithe self-affirmations 
  • subtitles [you have nothing, nothing left, nothing but your sins, well, sins are enough aren't they, your actions must be paid, even to death, even beyond death]
  • uninformative, change channel

7/28/2019

discover less to become more
the feet you land on land on land off all known maps
please don't leave/take a flag/photo
please do forget mismemorize the thought
always there never here never found so never lost

stay seeking downward corebound endward level
unfold your life into proton gossamer
gain the lack all threads go slack
a little pull until it snaps

6/27/2019

always only even

always only even
though as it seems
even still in terms
of notwithstanding
although would
rather and knowing
that in consideration
then whichever
with that assumption
all told but also it's
finally done take anything

my baby i love i love the war my love is something to offer you tonight tonight only always only even though as it seems even still in terms of notwithstanding although would rather and knowing that in consideration then whichever with that assumption all told but also it's finally done take anything

6/17/2019

i can say i love,
my body my singing blood, você
ten thousand dawns aren't that many
dez mil sóis, one afternoon, a blossom
of gold becomes the sky, becomes
attestation of affection, affection
when you're sitting where i can see you, i can see you
count one canary,
forty-thousand begging stamens,
a million glistening honey pots
as nil, not to be summed
my open throat of adoration, my petal
i see you i see you i see you
i see you
and see you
our joy
our joy is a horn erupting i praise you, i praise you
embrace me heal elevate me, affection
affection affection, carinho carinho carinho

5/08/2019

touch me
god
that's heaven
else i am
else-if i’m not
playing in a graveyard
with corpses
no more weakness
no more lack
the truth is

touch me god
must i admit
may i submit
the mind is only dreaming
else i am
always alone
always free

no more weakness, no
more anymore
only men
only love me
just for a bit

5/07/2019

                 i remember a
               bird ripped apart
                  downy gore
                 my own hands
               soft, destruction
                  i was lost
                not looking up
                 sky-avoidant
                  downward
                mute as stone
                 as a means of
                  departure
           de de de depar tur ture depa 
        departure departure departure depart 
     departure depart no remember departure 
departure
  depart departurei sky departure departure depart departure   
  departure departblood, torn apart departure departure  
 departure depart my own, selfdeparture depart departure
  departure departi was, destruction departure departure depart
 departure departure departure departure departure departure
depart departure departure departure departure 
                  departure 
                  departure

4/01/2019

story

open call to
empty note

turns off the living

calm, remote

my god, my father
begat, bespoke

i spat your name

it made me choke

the foiled title
the word unwrote

states: am, becoming

completes the joke



3/25/2019

Death is kind; death does not envy; death does not parade itself, is not puffed up; does not behave rudely, does not seek its own, is not provoked, thinks no evil; does not rejoice in iniquity, but rejoices in the truth; bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things.

Death has no fear; it does not worry; death keeps no records of wrongs; never fails. But whether there are prophecies, they will fail; whether there are tongues, they will cease; whether there is knowledge, it will vanish away. For we know in part and we prophesy in part. But when that which is perfect has come, then that which is in part will be done away.

When I was a child, I spoke as a child, I understood as a child, I thought as a child; but when I became a man, I put away childish things. For now we see in a mirror, darkly, but then face to face. Now I know in part, but then I shall know just as I also am known.

2/06/2019

this is golden boy

he was found cold and wet and he was very afraid of people

we took him in and fed him and gave him blankets and lots of reward systems

pretty soon his optimism spread like a virus

and now his smile, color, and height

obliterate dissent in groups

it didn't take him long to learn that life could be good

he is very friendly and kisses everyone

but mostly he loves to eat and play

he remembers nothing of his original state

he no longer even comprehends suffering

thanks to the kind contributions of people like you

1/31/2019

virus replicates
deer gives birth
wall is built
by whom

rock was
quasar is
being becomes
purpose applied
by whom
to whom

it's you
are you
you are
then not
not you
but are

1/16/2019

"i look fat in this one..." she thought
but what she post
dumb dreaming bitch
phasing in and out of extinction for likes likes likes
do the glitter of her death throes dazzle
baby baby 👶
death death 💀
need 💎
make god rue the day she rested
mad prismatic validates rates wails for attention
#blessed to impress bluelit excess

1/14/2019

we are

we are synthesized
and soon realize
that time never gives back

we are created
and then donated
to Living, forcibly
to enduring facticity

we are loaned our selves
and we borrow death
or is it theft
some go to the light,
unbereft
you choose right
i go left

1/06/2019

Now isn't the time or treason to say yes or no when maybe is what we need. The joy of sex of gun and bullet, the curiosity, the cunt of it. The pain no gain and disregard. The lack of control smacks of control. Go beyond hello, a casual remark leaves no mark. The abandonment. What would you know, you weigh it up, but can't keep count.


They’ve got a way to fix it
I’ve been hearing great things but
It’s inexplicable and
Cost-prohibitive and
Death-definitive
Do you want to look into it cuz
Your head’s not on right
Can you see that, look
Here, there
Is a thing that’ll help
Ask your doctor
If it's right for you
But it’s less a pill and
More a belief -
More like delusion
Than relief