4/19/2021

there comes a time when

  'n it's come faster than i thought

everything that pins you here

is drifting, dust, or done 


the painting above my bed

the seashell on the shelf

what does what could they mean

what cost what benefit to self


when even sen tenc es erode

n grammar or speech un hear d

what am or was   or was   i 

ca ca not find my words

2/19/2021

change

change
thanks for everythin
let's smoke 'em if you got 'em
while we're waitin for the end

decease
and desist already [sic]
cuz it's gettin late
'n hazy n i can't guarantee that
i'll guarantee that

yea
we fucked
it up i guess the slate is clean
and i'm sorry for what i did
but i'm still out fifty bucks
i guess we're fine

12/02/2020

world line

in 12000 BC a boy realized 

i know we don't know

as the mountain slept


and woke a thousand times

until 1998 in physics

mr. samson said we don't know


follow me to the mountain

sleep and dream under centuries of sheets

of rain and snow


after years of graduate archeophysics

i found his skeletal remains

sleeping with the mountains

i know he didn't know

we are bonded in


unknowable knowledge that

everything is layered

everything is every thing 

everything is a stratum of illusion and error

everything is mountains is sand is composed of the smallest possible amount of matter which still retains its identity as a chemical element and is not composed of other subatomic particles, that follows statistics describing the distribution of particles over energy states in systems consisting of many identical particles that obey the quantum mechanical principle which states that two or more identical fermions (particles with half-integer spin) cannot occupy the same quantum state within a quantum system simultaneously and generally have half odd integer spin 1/2, 3/2 etc except particles with the same mass, mean lifetime, and spin as their respective particles carrying a fractional electric charge, but the electric charge and other charges have the opposite sign and the particles that have a reversed world line to an elementary particle that has a spin of 1/2 and does not interact via the strong nuclear force of mountains of sand

10/16/2020

howl

father sits in sister's spot, strange. then mother, strange!
where is sister where is sister for many nights
father howls then mother howls louder, oh! so scary up to the bright dark
then brothers too and me too i howl hurt, our howls so scary and not calling sister
we howl and howl and howl together, same, alone
then mom stops so i stop we stop, and no sound
i hear, i see, song is done, sister is done

9/29/2020

aquatic missionary

born then brutalized
the serpent tries to eat itself
    we watch bored
like god, that drunken judge
    i dare him
to send satan to hell in my stead

my wishful sinking arises on
   the deepest ascent    alone
i breach the glassy veil     and launch lifted
into the inverted world   free
suspended and suffocating

8/25/2020

mixed up

birds of a feather think alike

great minds flock together

i wear my heart close to my chest

you carry your cards on your sleeve

all's fair in love and spoils

to the victor goes the war

7/14/2020

How a stamen sees a fish is how I sense my kind Billions of individuals with one mind asking Where Do I come from Where am I going There is nature Here is me And there is  Nature in the miles of wire The moon in the laptop The wind in the washing machine

Patience Independence From a singular many Trillions of parts With one mind answering How a stamen can see a fish Can I sense Billions and trillions Where do Am I Go I There is