3/15/2022

in the sun the weeds of life strangle life
but their roots do not reach the ancient dark
where freedom flourishes


2/17/2022

In the corner
On the sill
Under the blanket
At my feet
It's not there
In my right pupil
In my left
In the mirror
Outside
In the night
In the crowd
In the rain
In the flower bed
By the entrance
To the park
By the horses
By the trash can
In the pile of leaves
Among the rocks
Among the ash
Beside your after image
Within the looping nightmare
Beyond the void
Within our hearts
Nowhere can we find it

1/16/2022

having fun

decomposing ridden with a hundred thousand cuts is pleasure
donning regal silver death fantasy is play
wielding the abyssal power of midnight imagination is easy
pain is a child's toy
and time flies

12/24/2021

i miss you

but not enough of you

what you were

is now formlessness

the healing process

can feel like erasure

pain is holding on

grasping at memory

with broken fists

dumb and mute

is loving

the now gone
love on its way to you
got bent like light thru glass
caught on doubt mid-air
some mild indifference
enough to warp affection
refracted lengthwise
then diluted
see it bilocate
into rainbow
here it lands
there it hangs
arched among us
anchorless already
glimmering away

12/20/2021

river doesn't meditate
on the pain of its emptying
or the majesty of its source

its running is meditation
its changing is ceremony
stillness is next to godlessness


to the fawn in the brush
the entrails of the doe
spilled upon the frozen garden
symbolize nothing.
in the story of the fawn
there is no story.

12/19/2021

too dark

i'm eclipsed and have been emitting less light, withholding
radiance, just barely recognizable by the coronal shape of critical
absence, over the distance is silence, through the silence is
distance,

meaning here
meaning now, is refracted
it's over there, it's later on
doubling back on itself so i can't follow it
to my new life,
i'm too dark, too beyond my own control