11/16/2021

row, row
row your boat
gently down the stream
merrily merrily merrily row, row
row your boat merrily merrily merrily 
gently down the stream
merrily merrily row merrily row gently row down the stream merrily down
merrily merrily merrily merrily merrily merrilymerrily merrly merrily y
merril merr i i i lymerr meriilly mermerrily merrilymerri ly l y
life is:
chained to the hull
blood and shit in the water
miles of trees and roots closing in
unscalable bluffs
the majesty of the waterfall's falling
mist
ancient yet transitory
emptying out
rejoining the sea
but a dream

10/21/2021

a spell

i come upon the ghosts
i don't want to hold them
my grief is love with nowhere to go
i want to go, and i start to
then i cast a spell, or it casts itself

Vivianette, Lauren, Ursula, a sigil

vivianette leads my death to death

lauren tears its veil into fine threads

ursula sweeps it away in the still light of midday

unreturned, my joy, my love, is gone, is gone!

10/08/2021

A leash a leash
First dinner abandonment
Freedom and violence Ashes ashes 
The ocean lashes atone atone 
Life is something something helping something still eyed faulty failure lost our little boy 
What will help said life is fragile
Wrap in baby blanket body warm failure failure 
A leash Alisha said nothing could have happened other than the way it happened 
Regret the multiverse where he lives and I hold him again and play in the sun 
Acorn carrot abandonment a rainy night
Bad parents who fail Innocence something something innocence put pain somewhere spiral into a pit and stay there in hell
Publish 

7/28/2021

my gods are innumerable stars in a black sky
too close and low and static and issuing no light
above the silent dunes of ash, born of no tides, no winds
under leagues of soot forever undisturbed
one burnt and buried flake am i

6/30/2021

the far-flung
wren learns
a hard-won lesson:
become well-rounded by staying grounded,
be fueled by panic while aerodynamic,
or get there fast by shattering glass

6/29/2021

wish

a body that cannot be erased and cannot be carried across
the coiling finish line of mortality but can be carried
outward, to the sprawling cosmos meeting then surpassing the speeding boundary of this universe we have bodies in
emptying out and filling in the end of the expanse
is what you wish for 

from your sunken down beaten still beating heart upon waking in exhaustion
a heart that can't be moved, a body that can't be erased and speeds toward light-surpassing darkness,
and the humanity without the human wreckage and fatal remainder of living

whether you are written like a poem by the domineering hand of man or executed script by indifferent physics compiled as divinity,
the output is the same common pattern measured and measurable
a predicted pre-rejected wish for more

6/09/2021

only water 2

Even when when I’m only water
even then and only when
the wind is eager endless empty
ever is the river winnowing
eased or never easing, ending but never ended
within the wind I’m winding east
then west, then east
awake and wild